No excuse whatsoever for not having kept up. I think about writing every day, but somehow, manage to find something or another to occupy my time instead.
Unexpected storm today is keeping me home. It's almost 10am, and I've caught up with what I can do, and waiting for updates from other parties before continuing on.
Things have been good. For the most part. The struggle with Jake continues. About two weeks ago he sent me two really nasty texts in response to my having sent Ashley, her baby, and her 'step-children' gifts for Christmas. He was upset that I had spent "more money on them" than I had on him - not even knowing how much was spent of course, and following it up with another text referring to Ashley's boyfriend's children as "nigglites". I was/am so appalled. I really have a hard time reconciling the fact that this is my biological child. The decision to pull away completely had to be made. There isn't anything, in the world, that I could say or do that would change things between Jake and I at this stage of the game. His anger needs to run its course; and if it doesn't, then I'll just need to accept that fact, and live my life. It's so strange to love someone so much, and know that there is absolutely nothing reciprocated.
On the good news front, I'm getting super excited about my trip to the UK next month. Time's going by so fast, February 17th is less than a month away. I got my passport last week, and that was one big relief. I still need to organize hotel/etc. for my last night there, and I'll be spending at least one night in the company of my cousin and her family.
More later; off to take care of some work.
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