New Year

This morning I received a really nasty message from Jake.  It upset me, as they always do, and I began to feel myself drop into that state of sadness that hits me every time he does this.  However, later in the day, a good friend and co-worker posted some words on her Facebook page that made a huge difference.

"There comes a time in life where you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. So, love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy."


Now, I can't forget my son. I can't stop loving him, but I can choose to do the rest; surround myself by people who make me laugh and love those that treat me right.  That's easy to do.  My New Year's resolution is a simple one; continue on the path of securing health, and to that I'm adding the resolution of letting go of those things that cause me pain.  


Jake will need to find his way, or not.  I need to let it go, and let life sort itself out.  At this point in time, I think that he's so entrenched in being angry that he doesn't know any other way to be.  I honestly don't believe he has any love whatsoever for me, and I need to face the fact that he may never.  I can love him though, he can't take that from me, and I can send my love, my energy and hope that some day, he'll feel it and understand.  


So here's to happiness; his and mine.  May they someday meet.